Monday, August 20, 2007

It's getting so close!

The last few days have been busy, busy, busy. Shopping, packing, building the house, working...I have moments when I start to lose it and have a nervous breakdown, but then someone wonderful will talk me out of it and remind me that it is OKAY....Everything will be fine, and I need to focus on getting ready for this amazing trip, and to meet our son!
Tonite the ladies of our adoption group met and I am telling you, it was so good for me. I love being able to relate to this amazing group of women. I feel special to be included with them, and honored to call them friends. After I left, I felt so much better. Seeing them is a reminder of what I should be focused on. Thanks girls!
The rest of the week I will be working (when I have time, ha!) picking out carpet, packing, doing paperwork...and just trying to stay positive. I have been way too hard on myself lately, and had some really pitiful moments of...self-doubt and anxiety. And I am usually a laid back person. So I am resigning to let go of this pressure, and just do the best I can.
Being excited is way more fun than making mysef sick worrying!! :)
(Please note. My next post may not be this upbeat, but I reallyreallyreally will try.)


Diane said...

I wish I could have made it last night. I would love to have met you and heard more details of your trip. I'm sure you are a nervous wreck, but how exciting is this!! I can't wait to hear all the details. And where is the cabin you are building??

stephanie said...

I'm so excited for you! I can't even imagine it, the anxiety. It's so good to hear that your mind was put at east last night and bummed I couldn't make it. Soon ok?

Mama Papaya said...

Have an amazing trip. You are going to do great mama!